Our First Night Apart

This pic of us tonight could possibly be the last of us breastfeeding. In just a few hours I will be boarding a plane and leaving you for the next few days. I should be asleep right now, but sleep won’t come. My nerves are bad and I am feeling extremely anxious. Not so much […]

Keep Calm and Breastfeed

Three breastfeeding stints in and I’m still amazed over how something so natural does not always come so naturally. Breastfeeding is something that I have had to work hard at to maintain. It’s not always easy, but for me it has always been worth it. I think back on the struggles that I’ve had, and it’s […]

On Normalizing Breastfeeding

While I’m on the subject of breastfeeding, I’m flummoxed over why this can be a polarizing issue. Is controversy over breastfeeding really a thing? I don’t get it. When it comes to breastfeeding vs formula and breastfeeding in public, what exactly is there to argue over? Breastfeeding vs Formula Feeding Perhaps one issue is that some […]

On Loving and Loathing Breastfeeding

I can’t think of anything else in my life that has had the power to wield within myself such huge feelings of both failure and of greatness, vacillating multiple times between the two emotions all within the course of a single day.  I’ve never before at times been so over something, yet found myself breaking […]

To My Baby Boy/Big Boy On His 5th Birthday

  Dear Mattykinz, It seems ridiculous to think of it now, but when I first learned you were going to be a boy, I was a bit worried and apprehensive. I’m not really into cars, trucks, sports, bugs, or anything that is typically associated with raising a boy. And even though I know those ideas […]

Bringing Home Baby

Bringing Home Baby

In my last post, I wrote about deliveries not going as planned, and I ended up having just such a delivery which culminated in a cesarean section.  I had imagined being on cloud nine my last week of pregnancy, super excited over my impending arrival, however, I ended up spending those last few days completely stressed out […]